Bleh

Hey guys... Not much to say tonight. I am making it..just finished day 4 of preop. It's really stormy here tonight and I started not feeling well about an hour ago. I think I am dehydrated. I am making a goal to drink at least 4 of my glasses of water tomorrow. It is about 16 ounces per glass. Anyway... Heading to bed to get some sleep since I am sure I will be up later when the storms hit our area! I can already hear the wind picking up and the dry line is still in western Oklahoma.


- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

Location:NW Arkansas

My Doc and the Pre-Op diet

So after two days of TORTURE...I decided to look further into the Liver Shrinking diet.  My doctor, who is wonderful but clearly has ADD, told me to follow the pre-op diet in the book (which there was none) but he did say the goal was to shrink the liver.  I looked EVERYWHERE in cyberspace for a diet plan that makes moderate since and is close to liquid only with protein emphasis as I could find.   I decided on this:

http://www.healthbase.com/resources/medical-procedures/obesity-procedures/bariatric-surgery-patients-pre-operative-indications.html

The thing that I am most interested in is the 40-50 net carbs a day MAX.  This really helps me to make sure I am in my range. 

Seeing as I normally eat a WHOLE lot more then that and live off of fried foods and Dr. Pepper's I would say the change I am making - even if there is an egg and a piece of chicken here and there is AMAZING!  I have a clear enough head to admit that now.  Yesterday...not so much.

The protein shake is getting much better.  I am adding a 1/4 teaspoon of non sweetened cocoa to them to help give them a better taste. I don't think I will have to do that forever..just while I get used to it. 

My mood - much better today :-)

Is this weekend over yet?

Holy Crap - I feel like my stomach is going to jump out of my throat and find a new owner...and honestly at this point I wish I did not have a stomach.  I don't know what is hardest...having a husband and daughter that still gets to eat (I know they have to) or that I have read all these posts on the internet about other bandsters that got to each something they actually chewed. 

The protein shakes are HORRIBLE. I have this huge stock of them and after the surgery they will be used as a smoothly base because they most definitely need some help otherwise. 

At this point I would eat anything regardless of the taste.....nothing added to canned tuna, lettuce leaves, one bite of a meat..any meat. 

Is being skinny worth this?  YES but do I need reminding?? YES!

I am making it...i am ...but I am not happy about it - or in good spirits.

The only bright side is that I don't have a headache today like I did yesterday from no caffeine. 

Maybe a big glass of crystal light will lighten my spirits...going to get some now!!

Going through Food Detox and you guys bringing me to tears!!

So today has been absolute HELL.  I started the pre-op liquid diet and it is really difficult.  The hungry part isnt as bad as the dreaming of food.  All last night I had dreams of food and when I took a nap with my little girl today I had a dream about Sonic's popcorn chicken.  These protein shakes are MISERABLE and I am pretty irritable.  To top it off, I bought all kinds of boxes of jello and they got lost. I must have left them in my buggy Friday because I was in such a hurry to get to daycare to pick of Dixie.

So - when all was expected to be lost and I would be in sorrow for the next two weeks going through what I can only describe as food detox..I get on my blog and I have 17 FOLLOWERS.  That's amazing...AND people have posted some wonderful comments including my favorite that I am beautiful.  I am still crying from seeing all the amazing support and I am so glad that LBG sent everyone my way!  I feel like I am in this awesome club now with people that get it.  Thank you all so much!

I bought a new scale that is more accurate so I am off to take my 1st day Pre-op weight and pics.  Will post later.

Good night Lapbandia!

Goals

So I am working on plans for goals..mainly for two reasons...one because I actually see that it is possible and two because I want to reward myself for fun.  :-)

I used to always have a goal with food but since learned that was not the right thing to do...DUH! So now I am thinking of completely childish things that I want to do for myself that the normal woman can and I never have....some are super stupid but hey...might as well treat yourself for a change!

Some that I have thought of so far...with no real clue where to put them....

• $1000 for new clothes
• Photo shoot of new me
• Beach vacation (this one is for when I can wear a bikini and not make everyone go blind)
• Tan in a tanning bed (always afraid to put my fat ass in there)..haha
• go public (keeping this social media quiet for a while)
• massage
• get a makeover
• night out with the girls
• mommies day out - do something all by myself.
•  

Any other ideas??

Some Before Pics

Around Dec 2007 - Engagement Pics - If I remember correctly - I weighed around 290 around this time -- thats 40 pounds lighter then I do now.

2011 - Dixie was around 7 months old I think

Sept 2011 - Weigh in at what I do now..around 330 - in all my fat faced glory

awesome arms...just freaking awesome ---bleh

Right after I had Dixie in Sept 2012 - weighed around 320 or so

Back to work after maternity leave around Nov 2010...really good angle for me..dont let it fool you though...those arms are still there..haha

around the same time...see that was just a really good angle

yep around the same time again

August 2, 2011 - Dixie's 1 year birthday party.

Its Official!

On Monday Feb 20th - The doctor said that I was approved for surgery and it is booked for MARCH 9th!  I start my liquid diet on Saturday.  I am pretty sure I am ready...I have my friends and family doing a week of "last meals" and I honestly starting to not be excited about tasting it.  I bought these Oreo cookies like two days ago and I have not ate them yet!

I am really nervous about it but excited at the same time.  More posts to come.