In less then 12 hours I will be at my consultation. I have tried not thinking about it but of course..its all I can think about right now!!
I am a nervous wreak. To top it all off I am not telling my mom right now and its the first time I have kept something from her for this long since I was little. I mean I told her I was pregnant like 10 minutes after I found out. I feel kind of guilty but this is about me and while I love my mother - she has a tendency to make it about her and I 100% guarantee that as soon as she finds out she will discover some new amazing weight loss thing or surgery she is going to do as well. I do not mind if she does that but again....this is for me and I need to keep my focus on that not on other people 's journeys. Once I know that I can do this and I can focus on me..I will tell her. She may kill me but it will probably be after the surgery.
I will report back to the cyber world what the results are sometime tomorrow.